READY

The post below this one was actually written a couple of weeks ago, was posted and then deleted two days later. Lets just say I was going through alot. I went from being so sure I would do whatever it took to get her love back, to regretting ever loving her. Well I have come to my sensesl the truth is I miss the hell out of that woman. Bound with new determination, I once again feel brave enough to re-post the orginal messages containing my original feelings. The road back to gaining her love and trust again will be long, hard, tedious, and Im sure quite stressful at times but Im prepared. Not much else to say at this point except restate the obvious...Im ready.

Distractions...Distractions...Distractions

I have come to the conclusion I am finally a person who has been easily distracted in the past, this has led me to seek help my fellow lezzies. My likeness for distractions only arises when matters of the heart seem too good to be true. It has been done and written.. my beautiful girlfriend of almost two years has finally left me:( After all her efforts of giving unconditional love and me... well lets just say I did more taking than giving; she has walked out. I cant blame her though. She put up with a lot of my shit; the mood swings, the runny nose tissues all over the house, the taste for expensive trinkets and trips, the staying out way past a time deemed to be appropriate, and of course the dishonesty. Whatever my little heart desired she was much obliged and my dumb ass didn't appreciate it. Instead I chose to sniff around in all the neighbors yards to see what they had going on. HUGE MISTAKE!! Soooo. I have decided to turn a new leaf, to be true to myself and the person I am with. I divulge this insanely personal information as a warning to all you stupid bitches not realizing what you have at home. WAKE UP GOD DAMMIT! Wake up before its too late and you find yourself by yourself pondering over all the ridiculous mistakes you made. Wake up before you fine yourself too sick with pain to eat, too crushed to concentrate, too utterly disgusted at yourself for the way you treated her that can barely stand to look at yourself in the mirror. To any of you who are in my position and realized you just made a hell of a fuck up by losing "the one", do what I'm doing, fight tooth and nail to get her back. If it calls for you being extremely vulnerable, admitting your faults, going through measures like never before, and being committed to see it all through...DO IT! Do whatever it takes, don't let her get away... cause goddammit that's what Ima do.

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